I'm sorry to bring up white and black again.
Even when I am around really happy people and basically submerge myself in a sea of emotion, it doesn't matter what color I wear, I still feel empty. I'm not able to see the chakras, but I'm always able to sense the emotions in a room around me. Yet I almost never am able to partake in them, like there's a shield that sustains me minimally, but never allows me the wealth of all that I can have.